I still have final assignments submission yet here I chose to be. Well, just for a while. I need some rest. Haven't sleep for these past 3 days.
Missing my bedroom.
Anyway, let's get back to where I supposed to be. I'm struggling to earn a scroll of degree. 2017 gonna be my last year as a BTESL students.
I rummaged through my albums and looked at the photos. Somehow these bunch of emotions choke me. Out of nowhere. I don't think I can express these emotions with English. So allow me to rant in Malay. Though I learn Eglish, pardon me. I'm a true Malaysian.
Aku tak tau samada aku da matang, or berlagak matang. But then, people change, kan? We went through the hustle and bustle and we learned from it, eventually.
Bila aku tengok balik semua gambar2 yg aku simpan. I realised that sooner or later, some things stay and, leave or you're the one who chose to forget those things.
In my case, I lost certain things and earned lots of things.
If my friends happen to read this. Those who knows me inside out. They will know that I always have and had worst memories about friendship.
Dulu sumpah aku tak boleh hidup tanpa kawan. I swear. However, when I live jauh dr family and Terengganu, aku belajar untuk hidup berdikari.
Yes, things get tougher and harder on me but I've no choice. With or without, you still have to move on and create your life.
"ANIS, NAMPAK MACAM NAK NANGIS JE. OK TAK NI?"
I burst into tears.
Yeah, those question mmg nampak simple. Isn't it?
But thanks to that particular person, her words comfort me through my journey to earn a scroll of degree as a BTESL student.
"EH KAU DAH KENAPA? DAH TAK BETUL? CIBS!"
You never know. One's who used to hate became one's who can't live without. Her words might appear as sharp as knife but that shows how comfortable she is with me for being honest with her speech.
"ANIS, DUDUK LA SINI."
The moment I opened my heart to talk to people around me, I learned their personality. Thanks to these group of people, I learned how to mingle despite the awkwardness, I manage to find my way out to reach them.
"ANIS, NAK MAKAN SEKALI TAK? NAK MAKAN MANA?"
One's who used to be a stranger becomes my friend. Ni powernya makan satu meja. Rapat ke tak, bila kan sesama kita boleh jadi rapat. Thanks to food actually.
"People don't value the real you, it's not your loss, it's theirs"