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DON'T CALL IT FRIENDSHIP IF YOU DON'T MEAN IT

THEY TOLD ME THESE

TAK PAYAH JAGA HATI ORANG

KALAU ORANG LAIN

TAK NAK JAGA HATI KITA.

BIAR LA DIORANG TERASA HATI,

ASALKAN KITA TAK TERLUKA KEMUDIAN HARI.

DIORANG CAKAP KAU KURANG AJAR?

DIORANG PUN SAMA.

TAK PANDAI JAGA HATI ORANG

BLA...BLA...BLA...

They always told me those kind of advises...

they pour out their anger towards me!

When I'm not even care their feelings~

I WAS LIKE...THE HELL !!!

you all nasihat I jangan jadi lembu kena cucuk but then bila I rasa I tak perlu jaga hati you all at certain part, you all marah-marah I and cakap I tak kenang budi, tak reti jaga hati, tak pandai nak berkawan and SO ON.

...CONTOH SITUASI SEPERTI BERIKUT...

SITUATION 1

A : Pesal rmi je baik dgn aku bila diorg perlukn aku? Bila diorg tak nak, diorg layan aku mcm besi buruk.

B : Tu la...kau baik sgt. Yg kau p ikut kpla diorg tu pesal?

A : Mmg jenis aku macam ni. Org suruh, aku buat.

B : Kau ni mcm lembu la. Ikut je ke mna org tarik kau. Cuba jgn jdi lembut sgt.

A : Aku lembut???

B : Ye la...kau lembut. Tu psl kat depn kau, diorg pijak semut x mati. Blkg kau mcm mcm longkang.

A : Camne la aku nak jadi keras tiba2..? -,-"

B : Belajar katakan tidak. BIAR LA DIORANG TERASA HATI,

ASALKAN KITA TAK TERLUKA KEMUDIAN HARI.

SITUATION 2 (REVERSE)
B : Eh, jom p lepak? Aku tension la.
A : Takleh la...aku ada kije.
B : Penting sgt ke kije kau?
A : Penting la. Aku kne htr assignment sok neh.
B : Ala...mlm ni kau boleh buat.
A : Mlm ni..? Byk kot aku kne siapkan.
B : TAKPE AH! Buat la kije kau tu!
A : SORRY.
B : MACAM NI KE KAWAN?!!!
*B berlalu pergi dgn prasaan marah*

Did you get what I mean above..?
I cried for many times when it comes about friendship.
Its hard to endure the friendship pain.
It kills me inside.
I thought I have found the best friends.
BUT they treat me like SHIT !!!

I start to miss my late friends.
IFA AND YAYA.
That was the LAST TIME I felt
THE SWEETNESS OF FRIENDSHIP BOND.

Now I realize...the HIDDEN meaning of this sentence.

JANGAN PERNAH PERCAYAKAN SESIAPA SELAIN FAMILY.
MUNGKIN AWAK TAK FAHAM MAKSUD SAYA.
TAPI, SAYA TAK PERNAH PERCAYAKAN KAWAN2 SAYA.
SEBAB LAST SEKALI, DIORANG AKAN TINGGALKAN SAYA.
AND KHIANATI SAYA.

A guy told me that.
THANK YOU!
I WON'T FORGET YOU :')

TRUST YOUR BUDDIES???

PLEASE STOP IT !!!

A LONG-TERM FRIENDSHIP DOESN'T MEAN YOU UNDERSTAND YOU FRIENDS.

BECAUSE YOUR FRIENDS MIGHT HARM YOU.

MENGIMPIKAN BERADA DI ZAMAN RASULULLAH SAW DI MANA PERSAHABATAN UMAT ISLAM TAK PERNAH PUTUS DAN MEREKA SENTIASA BERPEGANG TEGUH DENGAN "SETIAP YANG ISLAM ITU BERSAUDARA". SWEET KAN? KITA TAK NAK SWEET MACAM TU KE..?

JEALOUSY IS THE MAIN CAUSE

OK, pd hari yg indah sbgimna indahnya driku ini d ciptakan...cewahhh!!!

I na berstory-morry sikit.
Da agk lma x update blog.
Dolu2 bkn men smngt na update blog.

Brblik kpd title d ats.
Dolu I ada p 1 sklh...
*form d rhsiakn*

I stay kat hostel.
MALAS nak cter pjg.
SO.....1 hri time prep, I tdr <~prep bgi I brmksd stado...
Then mai la 1 group akQ senior nih and they called la sorg abg nma...let say ABG J.

akQ senior : J, cu mung tgk mke ye. ad meh nge mung jo.
ABG J : ye k? *tgk scra dekat*
aQ : *lam keadaan x brp na sedr cz bru trjga dri tdr*
ABG J : awk, kte ade meh k?
aQ : *geleng kpla*
akQ senior : ad meh r J. mu 2 org pe adQ-bradk
ABG J : ye x? awk, kte jdi abg nge adik r op? dh org kbo mke kte sme.
aQ : *geleng kpla*

OK, tuh antra dialog I n abg tuh mse 1st tyme kenai.
AWAT TAK BERSUARA?
1st, akQ tuh ttbe kejutkn I yg syok brmimpi d alam alice wonderland...ecehhh~
2nd, tuh 1st tyme abg senior mai na kenal dgn I.
3rd, I x bese ane ckp dgn llki cz sblm tuh I sklh agma prmpuan. so, sdikit jnggal.

Blik dorm, ad la akQ cun yg comey nih aq pngil kQ deanne <~pndi2 la korg pronounce

kQ deanne : eh anis...abg J kem slm. pstuh, dye pesan sok p prep at blok form ***
aQ : abg J yg ane? <~siyes mmg lpe..ho3
kQ deanne : abg J yg jpe anis tyme prep t tuh.
aQ : *ingtn da kmbli* *jwb slm*

so, esoknye I p la ber-prepkn dri d blok trsbut.
Smpi2 at kelas abg J tuh...
Rmi glee akQ2 n abg2 duk tgu khdirn I
TERASA MCM YB uollsss :D
sO, I un stdy la dgn abg2 n akQ2 tuh.
abg J byk tlg n ckp dgn I.
tyme stdy tuh bru la I tgk mke abg J.
SERIOUSLY, SANGAT hensem!!!
*anys, kawal aty*

Lps bbrp mgu duk study at blok form tuh.
I d kejutkn dgn 1 fitnh surt layg.
Isi surat tu, psl sumone yg suka kat abg J.
OK, mse 1st tuh org x amk taw sgt, but bila da smpi 3 helai surat layg.
Smua kat hostel aspuri syak I yg tulis siap duk siasat I n tulisan I.
I tgk jgk isi dlm surat tuh.
UNTUK INFO UOLLSSS~
dlu tulisan I agk lebar so, senangg org na tiru.
so, smua org pk I yg tulis urat tuh.
I sedih sgt cz I d pinggirkn hmpir smua wrga spuri.
org pakat jeling2 n umpat law trsrempk dgn I.
SUNYI GILA BHAI !!!
Lps kes surt layg tuh, I n abg J da x rapat.
QUITE UPSET

Tiap kli I trsrempk dgn abg J, I akn tndukkn kpla.
I un trpk jgk,

*AWAT aku tunduk? mcm aku plk yg uat smua tuh*
Actually, I trsgt malu na brhdpn dgn abg J.
law korg na taw...hal surat layg tuh trsebr smpi at aspura.
bdk2 llki yg len un pndng serong at I.

Utk thn strusnya, I n abg J tetp x brtgur sapa.
for ur info, thn strusnya tuh..brulh smuanya trbongkr.
upe2nye, ad slh sorg akQ dri akQ senior yg kenalkn I n abg J ske an abg J.
sbb jeles, akQ tuh uat surt layg.

aQ : *knp smua trbongkr lm mse yg agk lma*

akQ tuh un mai mtk maf.
I da mafkn akQ tuh. sbnrnya, kes d org nih da d laporkn at ketua warden aspuri.
ekutkn d org da x ley stay dri hostel. tp...

ketua warden : law awk smua nok duk kat asrma ning agi. awk smua kne mtk maf dgn anys. adQ yg uat smua duk fitnahkn tuh.

Utk pngthuan korg jgk, I mafkn akQ tuh sbb ikhlas la jgk <~cm x ikhlas jewp
Pstuh sbb akQ2 tuh duk jao sgt...xkn la d org na ulang alik nek bas mai sklh.
Lps dri tuh, kes I n abg J da senyp but hbungn I n abg J tetp tegang.
korg baygkn, btpa seksanya d tempt I.
da la duk hostel, pstuh d pinggirkn. I sorg...jewp.
p ane2 sorg jewp. smua org boikot I.
lps tuh, I amk kptusn kuar hostel

Tuh jewp slot drama smarinda yg na share...huuu~

I DON'T HAVE TO WORRY ANYMORE BECAUSE I ALREADY MET THE BEST GUY IN MY LIFE...AFIQKUN !!!

HARDSHIPS

My mood is swinging right now.
DEPRESS!!!
*sighs*

Yeah!

That is the major problem why I feel stress.

Last night a friend of mine told me a story.

When I listened to her.

I just felt like...

I climbed up a mountain to reach at the top of it.

And then a strong wind came...

I try to hold on tightly.

But then the strong wind came over and over again.

The last result was...

I fell into a dark hole.

To get out of it I have to start right from the bottom AGAIN.

Could you imagine...

you close to someone.

You listen to his/her words.

He/She curses that certain person.

You gave them advises.

But then, he/she told to that person...

all the words he/she told you is YOURS.

And then, YOU and THAT PERSON are having a BIG PROBLEM.

*INDEED...most all of you experienced it, right?*

FOR THAT PERSON !!!
I HOPE YOU READ THIS...

To: YOU
From: ME
*I wish I can mention her name*

"Why you told her that I was making up that story? Saya tak ambil tahu apa2 pun pasal dia. I knew her story from YOU! BECAUSE you are the closest friend of her. Awak kutuk dia depan saya. But then, awak cakap saya yang kutuk dia? WTH!!! You used my name...did you realized that you created this chaos? Still...you can smile and laugh and order me around to do something for you. What kind of friend you are??? Saya malas nak ungkit what I have done for you. But, saya paling marah...when you told her. Jangan minta tolong dari saya? HEY YOU! Awak sedar tak? Awak halang kawan awak untuk berjaya! WHAT MAKES YOU HATE ME SO MUCH? Arghhhh!!!"

I lost this battle.

"Whenever you need a shoulder to cry on...you have me. And I have been thinking all of this while...you'll be my shoulder when I have problems. THAT IS THE BIGGEST MISTAKE. I miscalculated about you. You make me as an umbrella. To avoid from getting wet...you use me as your shelter. When the sun comes out...you left me behind."