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MASTERING HANGUL

I just want to share my random thoughts tonight.

It has been 2 months since the Malaysians Government started the Restriction Movement Order/ Movement Control Order (whatever you may call it).

I was happy when I heard the RMO as I am a homebody.

I just love my house and my bed.

The feeling of not getting out from this house makes me out of words.

I just love lazying around but my business still keeps me going.

So not really 100% bum around.

Entered the second week, my heart was wriggling to see the world.

Oh, my bedroom has no windows.

So I have no single ideas of what the weather is like outside unless it is raining.

I could tell it is raining by the raindrops sound on the rooftop.

Anyway, I volunteered to be the main household buying the groceries.

I was so happy but apart from that, I was 80% nervous about the what-ifs.

The coronavirus developed the germaphobic inside me.

When I thought I had enough of going outside, I searched for what I want to do most.

Well, I still do groceries because I get worried sick whenever my parents going out for groceries as they are vulnerable.

Since the dalgona coffee was a thing during the first and second weeks of RMO, I just love watching people enjoying their own stuff.

I keep asking myself what I love and then ka-ching!

I love kpop and kdramas so why not I start learning hangul for real.

I learned before but I forgot the alphabets.

So, I motivated myself to learn hangul and now I can read the alphabets except the complex vowels.

I stuttered when reading hangul but hey! I managed it!

I told my husband I learned hangul and he supports me.

Guess what? He is so jealous of me for having time to learn my favourite language.

He loves the Japanese language but he has to focus on his certificate exam which I don't know when it's going to take place but I knew he studies hard for the exam.

He promised me that he will allow me to enrol into the Korean class - sponsored by him.

THANKS, BABY BOO.

My aim is to be an intermediate level of hangul student.

I want to read them as smooth as I could.

I want to speak in Korean as fast as I could as well.

The last time I learned the foreign language was 8 years ago - the Arabic language.

Since I am burning with passion to master the hangul, I purchased my first hangul workbook.

I was so happy when I first received it!

There's no shortcut when it comes to language learning.

I hope by the end of I don't know when I can use hangul as much as I can.

Learning a foreign language at the age of 27 years old with this rusty mind?

It is hard but it is possible.

Therefore, wish me luck!

ORDINARY BUT EXTRAORDINARY

Assalamualaikum!

This is me skipping my blog entry for like years.

This morning I just have the urge to open this blog to write something.

R.A.N.D.O.M

Well, I guess I should try to keep my blog as an online diary.

These past few days I've been thinking to deactivate my social media accounts.

Due to the COVID-19 issues, I decided to not do that as I might be left behind.

Plus I'm an ignorant folk when it comes to current issues.

One of the reasons why my thinking skills are rusty.

Too many things to catch up with.

Let's just skip part by part.

I graduated from Diploma TESL in 2014.

In between that, I worked as a private English Tutor.

Furthered my study in BTESL at Management and Science University in September 2014.

Married to my first love on the 9th of December 2017.

Graduated from BTESL in August 2018.

Unemployed until now.

Before you judge me, pardon my grammars.

Oh, I actually did some home tutor and proofreading jobs.

However, I decided to stop for a while.

If that makes sense heh.

Currently, I'm working as a marketing manager (?)

My friend, Pika, asked me to collaborate with her as she is selling The Wooman Potion.

If it's your first time hearing about it, just search us in Instagram @thewoomanpotion.terengganu.

That's how I end up working as her colleague.

I do all the promoting stuff while she attends to our customers.

Since attending to the customers is quite a tiring job.

I help her in term of cash on delivery, self-pickup and postage services whenever I'm not too occupied with my life.

Oh, I live apart from my husband.

He works at Johor, while I'm at Terengganu.

I still managed to serve and attend my husband when we lived together from August 2018 until February 2019.

So now, it has been 1 year plus living apart from him.

Kind off upset and we bicker a lot.

I always looking for minor mistakes just because I want his attentions.

Hope you're not misunderstanding me.

My husband is the best but since we first married we've been living apart until he decided to live together.

However, his working environments and conditions don't allow us to stick together.

This year going to be our third year in marriage-ship.

I don't really think we're like any commonly married couples who are living together.

Whenever I had the chance to meet my husband, I always used our time together to the fullest as I won't know when I'll get to meet him.

It is because his works require him to move around (Klang, Melaka, Johor).

So, that is it.

To be frank I want to share my feelings.

Somehow I end up rambling about random stuff.

I miss my husband so much on a day like today.

We had a conversation about our life and he seemed guilty and sad.

All I want is to be by his side, to stroke his cheeks, console, cuddle and kiss him that things will fall at their places when the time comes.

Now, I couldn't do that due to the Restriction Movement Order.

I pray that all the COVID-19 issues will settle down as quickly as possible so all of us can meet to catch up on some things and get things back on their plates.

You might think I have an ordinary life.
But not me.
This is my extraordinary life.

SOONER OR LATER

I still have final assignments submission yet here I chose to be. Well, just for a while. I need some rest. Haven't sleep for these past 3 days.

Missing my bedroom.

Anyway, let's get back to where I supposed to be. I'm struggling to earn a scroll of degree. 2017 gonna be my last year as a BTESL students.

I rummaged through my albums and looked at the photos. Somehow these bunch of emotions choke me. Out of nowhere. I don't think I can express these emotions with English. So allow me to rant in Malay. Though I learn Eglish, pardon me. I'm a true Malaysian.

Aku tak tau samada aku da matang, or berlagak matang. But then, people change, kan? We went through the hustle and bustle and we learned from it, eventually.

Bila aku tengok balik semua gambar2 yg aku simpan. I realised that sooner or later, some things stay and, leave or you're the one who chose to forget those things.

In my case, I lost certain things and earned lots of things.

If my friends happen to read this. Those who knows me inside out. They will know that I always have and had worst memories about friendship.

Dulu sumpah aku tak boleh hidup tanpa kawan. I swear. However, when I live jauh dr family and Terengganu, aku belajar untuk hidup berdikari.

Yes, things get tougher and harder on me but I've no choice. With or without, you still have to move on and create your life.

"ANIS, NAMPAK MACAM NAK NANGIS JE. OK TAK NI?"

I burst into tears.

Yeah, those question mmg nampak simple. Isn't it?

But thanks to that particular person, her words comfort me through my journey to earn a scroll of degree as a BTESL student.

"EH KAU DAH KENAPA? DAH TAK BETUL? CIBS!"

You never know. One's who used to hate became one's who can't live without. Her words might appear as sharp as knife but that shows how comfortable she is with me for being honest with her speech.

"ANIS, DUDUK LA SINI."

The moment I opened my heart to talk to people around me, I learned their personality. Thanks to these group of people, I learned how to mingle despite the awkwardness, I manage to find my way out to reach them.

"ANIS, NAK MAKAN SEKALI TAK? NAK MAKAN MANA?"

One's who used to be a stranger becomes my friend. Ni powernya makan satu meja. Rapat ke tak, bila kan sesama kita boleh jadi rapat. Thanks to food actually.

"People don't value the real you, it's not your loss, it's theirs"

Teaching Experience

Hi, guys!

I don't know how many years passed coz it's been quite a long time when I last posted my entry in this blog.

Well, people change as time goes by.

So do I.

It's 5:44am and I don't know what brings me to write an entry today.

Perhaps because I remembered my old days.

Where I always type an entry to express my feelings.

Hey! I've got a lot of story in my pockets.

Where should I begin, huh?

Well, lemme start with the oldest news.
Perhaps lame...news?
I graduated my study in Diploma TESL at Unisza last year.
Yes, I am a diploma certificate holder.
Before I ended up my diploma, I taught Year 3 English at SK Manir from 1st Jan until 27th Feb as the trainee teacher.
Right after that, I worked as an English Tutor as a full-time teacher.
The tutorial centre I worked at was Rapid Reader.
It was nearby my housing area.
Yes, it WAS.
I taught standard 3, 4, 5 and 6 as well as form 1, 2 and 3.
You might think that was cool.
But frankly speaking, I was tired actually, but somehow I felt great at that time.
Because I was able to teach the students what I've learnt throughout my Diploma year.
The salary was not bad since I was able to give some money and some gifts for my parents and siblings.
That was the moments I thought that I am a responsible daughter.

Let's move on the story on what kind of students I met and taught.

During my practicum months, I was sent to Taska Permata on December 2013 before the school session starts on January 2014.

I still remembered like clearly remembered 6 kiddos from the kinder garden.

Amsyar, Adib, Qayyum, Aisyah, Najwa and Arisa.

They had quite different personalities.

You know, kids around 2 to 4 years old, they tend to be attention seekers just to grab adults' attention.

Thus, they always act cute and sometimes they sulk because they want us to pay attention towards them.

That's why I can't help but to remember each six of them.

It would be such a long story why I remembered six of them though a year passed by.

Proceed with my teaching practicum at SK Manir, Kuala Terengganu.
I was assigned to teach English Year 3.
The class's name did not ring my bell, but the most students who I remembered till now was Iskandar.
He was well I guess still an active student.
When I taught in front of the class, he disturbed his friends.
Sometimes, he even talked to his friends and, of course! he talked back to me.
I was furiously angry at him whenever I entered his class.
Well, not only him but at the whole class.
There were times where I cried because I never know that being a teacher was that hard.
You guess what.
They still know how to 'pujuk' me, and that made my day.
I just love each of them till now.
It was a great pleasure, as well as the great moments to be part of SK Manir for 2 months.

Well, that's all from me I guess.
I'll get back to you for the next story.
Because I'm sleepy like crazy.

DON'T CALL IT FRIENDSHIP IF YOU DON'T MEAN IT

THEY TOLD ME THESE

TAK PAYAH JAGA HATI ORANG

KALAU ORANG LAIN

TAK NAK JAGA HATI KITA.

BIAR LA DIORANG TERASA HATI,

ASALKAN KITA TAK TERLUKA KEMUDIAN HARI.

DIORANG CAKAP KAU KURANG AJAR?

DIORANG PUN SAMA.

TAK PANDAI JAGA HATI ORANG

BLA...BLA...BLA...

They always told me those kind of advises...

they pour out their anger towards me!

When I'm not even care their feelings~

I WAS LIKE...THE HELL !!!

you all nasihat I jangan jadi lembu kena cucuk but then bila I rasa I tak perlu jaga hati you all at certain part, you all marah-marah I and cakap I tak kenang budi, tak reti jaga hati, tak pandai nak berkawan and SO ON.

...CONTOH SITUASI SEPERTI BERIKUT...

SITUATION 1

A : Pesal rmi je baik dgn aku bila diorg perlukn aku? Bila diorg tak nak, diorg layan aku mcm besi buruk.

B : Tu la...kau baik sgt. Yg kau p ikut kpla diorg tu pesal?

A : Mmg jenis aku macam ni. Org suruh, aku buat.

B : Kau ni mcm lembu la. Ikut je ke mna org tarik kau. Cuba jgn jdi lembut sgt.

A : Aku lembut???

B : Ye la...kau lembut. Tu psl kat depn kau, diorg pijak semut x mati. Blkg kau mcm mcm longkang.

A : Camne la aku nak jadi keras tiba2..? -,-"

B : Belajar katakan tidak. BIAR LA DIORANG TERASA HATI,

ASALKAN KITA TAK TERLUKA KEMUDIAN HARI.

SITUATION 2 (REVERSE)
B : Eh, jom p lepak? Aku tension la.
A : Takleh la...aku ada kije.
B : Penting sgt ke kije kau?
A : Penting la. Aku kne htr assignment sok neh.
B : Ala...mlm ni kau boleh buat.
A : Mlm ni..? Byk kot aku kne siapkan.
B : TAKPE AH! Buat la kije kau tu!
A : SORRY.
B : MACAM NI KE KAWAN?!!!
*B berlalu pergi dgn prasaan marah*

Did you get what I mean above..?
I cried for many times when it comes about friendship.
Its hard to endure the friendship pain.
It kills me inside.
I thought I have found the best friends.
BUT they treat me like SHIT !!!

I start to miss my late friends.
IFA AND YAYA.
That was the LAST TIME I felt
THE SWEETNESS OF FRIENDSHIP BOND.

Now I realize...the HIDDEN meaning of this sentence.

JANGAN PERNAH PERCAYAKAN SESIAPA SELAIN FAMILY.
MUNGKIN AWAK TAK FAHAM MAKSUD SAYA.
TAPI, SAYA TAK PERNAH PERCAYAKAN KAWAN2 SAYA.
SEBAB LAST SEKALI, DIORANG AKAN TINGGALKAN SAYA.
AND KHIANATI SAYA.

A guy told me that.
THANK YOU!
I WON'T FORGET YOU :')

TRUST YOUR BUDDIES???

PLEASE STOP IT !!!

A LONG-TERM FRIENDSHIP DOESN'T MEAN YOU UNDERSTAND YOU FRIENDS.

BECAUSE YOUR FRIENDS MIGHT HARM YOU.

MENGIMPIKAN BERADA DI ZAMAN RASULULLAH SAW DI MANA PERSAHABATAN UMAT ISLAM TAK PERNAH PUTUS DAN MEREKA SENTIASA BERPEGANG TEGUH DENGAN "SETIAP YANG ISLAM ITU BERSAUDARA". SWEET KAN? KITA TAK NAK SWEET MACAM TU KE..?

JEALOUSY IS THE MAIN CAUSE

OK, pd hari yg indah sbgimna indahnya driku ini d ciptakan...cewahhh!!!

I na berstory-morry sikit.
Da agk lma x update blog.
Dolu2 bkn men smngt na update blog.

Brblik kpd title d ats.
Dolu I ada p 1 sklh...
*form d rhsiakn*

I stay kat hostel.
MALAS nak cter pjg.
SO.....1 hri time prep, I tdr <~prep bgi I brmksd stado...
Then mai la 1 group akQ senior nih and they called la sorg abg nma...let say ABG J.

akQ senior : J, cu mung tgk mke ye. ad meh nge mung jo.
ABG J : ye k? *tgk scra dekat*
aQ : *lam keadaan x brp na sedr cz bru trjga dri tdr*
ABG J : awk, kte ade meh k?
aQ : *geleng kpla*
akQ senior : ad meh r J. mu 2 org pe adQ-bradk
ABG J : ye x? awk, kte jdi abg nge adik r op? dh org kbo mke kte sme.
aQ : *geleng kpla*

OK, tuh antra dialog I n abg tuh mse 1st tyme kenai.
AWAT TAK BERSUARA?
1st, akQ tuh ttbe kejutkn I yg syok brmimpi d alam alice wonderland...ecehhh~
2nd, tuh 1st tyme abg senior mai na kenal dgn I.
3rd, I x bese ane ckp dgn llki cz sblm tuh I sklh agma prmpuan. so, sdikit jnggal.

Blik dorm, ad la akQ cun yg comey nih aq pngil kQ deanne <~pndi2 la korg pronounce

kQ deanne : eh anis...abg J kem slm. pstuh, dye pesan sok p prep at blok form ***
aQ : abg J yg ane? <~siyes mmg lpe..ho3
kQ deanne : abg J yg jpe anis tyme prep t tuh.
aQ : *ingtn da kmbli* *jwb slm*

so, esoknye I p la ber-prepkn dri d blok trsbut.
Smpi2 at kelas abg J tuh...
Rmi glee akQ2 n abg2 duk tgu khdirn I
TERASA MCM YB uollsss :D
sO, I un stdy la dgn abg2 n akQ2 tuh.
abg J byk tlg n ckp dgn I.
tyme stdy tuh bru la I tgk mke abg J.
SERIOUSLY, SANGAT hensem!!!
*anys, kawal aty*

Lps bbrp mgu duk study at blok form tuh.
I d kejutkn dgn 1 fitnh surt layg.
Isi surat tu, psl sumone yg suka kat abg J.
OK, mse 1st tuh org x amk taw sgt, but bila da smpi 3 helai surat layg.
Smua kat hostel aspuri syak I yg tulis siap duk siasat I n tulisan I.
I tgk jgk isi dlm surat tuh.
UNTUK INFO UOLLSSS~
dlu tulisan I agk lebar so, senangg org na tiru.
so, smua org pk I yg tulis urat tuh.
I sedih sgt cz I d pinggirkn hmpir smua wrga spuri.
org pakat jeling2 n umpat law trsrempk dgn I.
SUNYI GILA BHAI !!!
Lps kes surt layg tuh, I n abg J da x rapat.
QUITE UPSET

Tiap kli I trsrempk dgn abg J, I akn tndukkn kpla.
I un trpk jgk,

*AWAT aku tunduk? mcm aku plk yg uat smua tuh*
Actually, I trsgt malu na brhdpn dgn abg J.
law korg na taw...hal surat layg tuh trsebr smpi at aspura.
bdk2 llki yg len un pndng serong at I.

Utk thn strusnya, I n abg J tetp x brtgur sapa.
for ur info, thn strusnya tuh..brulh smuanya trbongkr.
upe2nye, ad slh sorg akQ dri akQ senior yg kenalkn I n abg J ske an abg J.
sbb jeles, akQ tuh uat surt layg.

aQ : *knp smua trbongkr lm mse yg agk lma*

akQ tuh un mai mtk maf.
I da mafkn akQ tuh. sbnrnya, kes d org nih da d laporkn at ketua warden aspuri.
ekutkn d org da x ley stay dri hostel. tp...

ketua warden : law awk smua nok duk kat asrma ning agi. awk smua kne mtk maf dgn anys. adQ yg uat smua duk fitnahkn tuh.

Utk pngthuan korg jgk, I mafkn akQ tuh sbb ikhlas la jgk <~cm x ikhlas jewp
Pstuh sbb akQ2 tuh duk jao sgt...xkn la d org na ulang alik nek bas mai sklh.
Lps dri tuh, kes I n abg J da senyp but hbungn I n abg J tetp tegang.
korg baygkn, btpa seksanya d tempt I.
da la duk hostel, pstuh d pinggirkn. I sorg...jewp.
p ane2 sorg jewp. smua org boikot I.
lps tuh, I amk kptusn kuar hostel

Tuh jewp slot drama smarinda yg na share...huuu~

I DON'T HAVE TO WORRY ANYMORE BECAUSE I ALREADY MET THE BEST GUY IN MY LIFE...AFIQKUN !!!

Shades Of Blue

-Nyet rindu dengan blog ni, BARANGKALI-

Assalamualaikum...
Disebabkan dah TERLALU LAMA tak update blog.
Nak la citer pasal TESL ANNUAL DINNER.
ANNUAL DINNER ye mak jemah sekalian.
Takde la grand sangat, tapi NOT BAD LA ^^

So, 22nd February 2013...
We olls yang involved in preparation and performance terpaksa move early la.
WHERE TO GO?
QUINARA AL-SAFIR RESORT
BUT, I went there with my little kancil.

Aku under performance.
MENARI TARIAN LENGGOK SI DARA.

That was my team...heee~

So, malas nak explain byk.
I kasi u olls tengok pictures.

TESL ANNUAL DINNER 2013
UNIVERSITI SULTAN ZAINAL ABIDIN (UniSZA)
SHADES OF BLUE
22/2/2013
QUINARA AL-SAFIR RESORT